demark!

Tedium — in training

In Uncategorized on June 5, 2013 at 10:25 pm

Oh inspired heart!

Oh measured mind!

Both have forsaken me.

Leaving in their stead

But a few Romantic words

Of waning mourning.

I cannot but look out upon my city

That once stirred great things in me

And now feel only self-pity

Over what things should but will never be.

 

For the time has passed me by

To move great mountains of men

With none but my words

And lift them to Victory.

 

The time has passed for allusion.

Days are now bathed

In the light of this day and none other

And we are left to scratch out

Mere existence

Amongst a myriad of worry

A torment of troubles

A rising tide of anger and resent

And that very worst of all, Routine.

 

Perhaps our knight will once again come riding

To alert us to the lurking villain

To slay the tedium that itself has slain inspiration.

Perhaps he shall claim us as his maiden

And ride off to foreign conquests in our name

Braving the ever-present threat

Of quietly passing away to obscurity while none watch.

 

Maybe these days, too, shall turn

Nights and winters, too, shall fade

New summers will bring new dreams

All at once the same as those we had passed

And drawn our soaring hopes from,

And all at once bearing the sign of Difference,

That great temptress of promise and hope

And regret.

We once said that it was not for us to say

That the world would pass

Without paying us notice.

And in the face of this great Indifference

We swore against the world and to it

That we would be known

That we would change her

Whether the world wished it or not.

 

What happened to that inspired heart?

Is it laid in irons?

And that calculating mind,

Has it timed its exit?

 

There is, of course, time

As there always is

But she is no ally here

Too cold and indifferent to care

About the plight of mortality

About the scar of birth into a dying cage.

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  1. wow….beautiful but depressing. you are much too young to be so jaded. mom

  2. This is intense, DeMark. I enjoyed reading it, and have read through it a couple of times. I hope writing it helped you through it!
    On a random day in February I started a photo project – “Everday photo” (not too original) – to help me appreciate the routine, the everyday, we all live. My plan is to post one photo a day on FB and my flickr account for one year. I’m into day 117. It’s been fun, therapeutic, eye-opening, sometimes inconvenient. Life is a journey!
    Cheers to you,
    Delia

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